You know when you’re trying to convince yourself you need to stop or start doing something, you usually overload yourself with information hoping that it will flip some sort of imaginary switch in your head? Yeah, that’s me. This week’s kick? Soda.
Problem is, I’m stuck. Soda is like a drug that I can’t give up. It’s a habit for me that every morning I stop at Sonic and get the .99 Large Diet Dr. Pepper (add Diet Cherry for .10) and that’s my morning “get-me-going-til-lunch” drink. This is after I’ve had my 16-oz water with Synthroid though, so I’ve always felt it was balanced out, especially since after that, most of what I have is water too… until Supper, and that’s another can of whatever diet is in the house. It’s my hangup, and I have yet to get rid of it.
Problem is, I feel like I need to. I’ve been on this weightloss / get healthy thing for a while now, and it seems no matter how hard (or not) I try, my body isn’t going to get past 1X0 (X being my ‘veil” for the weight-mark of which I will not share). Trying to get past that and to get into the next bracket of 1X0 is becoming impossible. I thought I had finally broken it, and then BAM, I’m right back there again. It’s becoming frustrating as I’m eating healthier and tracking calories and exercise and am almost always under my calorie goal for the day in MyFitnessPal. I’ve even contemplated asking my endo about trying Victoza. I know that being hypothyroid also plays a roll in my ability (or lack thereof) to lose weight, but still. This is just SO freakin’ hard when you don’t see the scale move.
So, I’m stuck, Part of me just wants to say “screw it” and happily slurp my ice cold Diet Cherry Dr. Pepper. The other part of me wants to give it up for good and see what happens… then I know the voice in the back of my head will be all – “you know you want it…. just go get the darn drink… one won’t hurt…..”